Blog 6: Time to close the lid of the trash can

Part I: GOOD-BYE CRUEL CRUEL WORLD OF UPCYCLING.

Actually, upcycling wasn't bad. I actually enjoyed myself.
But it's finally time to close the lid.
I don't have much time during the day to do anything besides my regular routine of: wake up, coffee, school, coffee, dance, coffee, homework, sleep for 2-5 hours, repeat, and upcycling just cut into the sleep time.

I'm just going to sleep through spring break. It's finally time to take my own advice from my brain project. (You would've thought I learned something)

I mean, it didn't really bother me that much that upcycling was cutting into my sleep time, but now that comp season is here, I'd much rather spend my time at the studio and sleeping than blowing up 75 balloons only for them to be a huge disappointment.

Yes, I was disappointed by the way it turned out, but it worked and didn't fall during my TED Talk and that made it all worth it (kinda...not really)

So...did I really turn trash to treasure? No. No I didn't. I turned recyclables to physical representations of my trash recyclable creativity.

The only thing I'm actually proud of making is the bouquet of roses. Also, that one hurt me the least.

I ended up meeting all my goals so....that was good I guess.

Also I found a whole box of acrylic paints after I finished my major painting projects so um wirhfwlurhlwufl whoops.

Part II: Let's talk discuss my disastrous TED Talk

I didn't fall off the stage. That was the only good part.

My slides were decent I guess. I didn't know how to be creative with it.

NOW LET'S DISCUSS THE THINGS THAT WENT WRONGGGG wee

1. I forgot to look at McPerlman so I have no idea if I went undertime, overtime, anything.

2. I was looking at my note cards except some of them were turned over so any time I looked down it looked like I was reading them but half the time I was staring at a blank or upside-down card.

3. I was too quiet.

4. I'm pretty sure I talked too fast. I usually do and I tried to fix it but once I got up there I stopped thinking and my mouth just rambled away.

5. I cut out half of my script 1-2 nights before because it was too long so I might have added things I wasn't supposed to.

6. I had so many pauses but most of them were intentional but I don't know it might have seemed awkward.

7. I started freaking out in the middle because I was suddenly conscious I was on a stage. I hope I covered it up....

8. I had to go after Santo aka a good presenter aka I looked bad because I am not a good presenter aka time to scream internally (and externally...I eventually screamed out loud).

9. Ha, my hair was a mess. It always is though.

10. I KEPT STUTTERING OH MY LORDY ALLIE CAN YOU PLEASE ENGLISH

11. I could say so much more but I bet you guys stopped reading this because this is me being mad at myself because as Caleb would say (but apparently he's not a good source according to others idk..) "Allie, you're an actual idiot".

time to cry :)

Here's a little message from my dance friends because they were messing around when I was filming so this is what they get.

hehe im the one in the middle killing everyone cuz im marie antoinette

Part III: Autonomy, Mastery, and Purpose

Autonomy: 

I had complete control of everything I did, and this is the one project that I did. (I mean we all had complete control but ya know this blog is all about being self-centered.) There weren't many guidelines, and I actually got to do something I wanted to. Plus, I don't think any other project would let me play around with trash and bring in 75 balloons to school.

Mastery:

Did I become a master? No.

Am I proud of what I accomplished? Yea, mostly

How many hours did I spend doing this? About 5 hours a week so like 30 hours.

Purpose:

YAY I GAVE MYSELF A PURPOSE!!!
I ACTUALLY ACCOMPLISHED STUFF!!!
I ACTUALLY HELPED THE ENVIRONMENT!!!
I MADE AN ACTUAL IMPACT!!!!!!!!!

yay

that made it worth it

what a cheesy thing to say

And now I leave you with a few wise words from Oscar the Grouch who is the best character on Sesame Street I will fight anyone who thinks otherwise.

also, i didn't get to use a power-tool at all during all these 6 weeks.....
:(
my mother said she didn't want me to chop a finger off but i think the real reason is because she's afraid that once i get a power-tool i'll be more dominant than she is cuz i'm taller than her

ok well after saying all that harsh stuff about myself I think I should add that:
1. I think this was actually one of the better presentations I've done
2. I worked my buttocks off for this and I think those trees gave me anxiety
3. I tryharded this project SOO MUCH (just like literally everything else I do but ya know)

Citations:

Just saying but in almost every one of my blogs one of the citations is complete bull because I got bored and was like "hmmm what can I do to be a complete idiot today..." at 4 am